 | I chase time. I chase dream. But will it mean I lose everything in between? Mama says head on, Ayah says stay. Shall I let nature takes its course, knowing that I will not be able to handle its dip of failure. Why do we dream too much in the first place?
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Tuesday, December 22, 2009
10:19 AM
Noticed how ive drop some weight and trying to look better? The last time when I considered myself looking fat, I was weighing at 53kg, and now im only at a skin and bone weight of 44kg. So i loss roughly 9kg right? I thought it would make me look better, but HELL NO its not. Im not gonna brag because I am seriously hating this skinnier version of me. I love how my face loss some weight but my hips and boobs are losing it too. My jean are all becoming hipsters(even my new ones) and its dxmn uncomfortable when my pants kept dropping when I walk. Like a buttcrack exhibition i tell you. I know there's such thing call belts, but i dont believe in it, and i dont even have one. I want to fatten up now, but its tough. I regret every single kilos that i have loss.
So where have I been all this while since im gone? Hahah feeling superstar. Been collecting cash and dvd marathon at bby's. I love gg to msia and just returning with lots of those....you know. hehe. So now nenek staying at our jb house and my family officially do not have a hangout place no more. Ayah's facing alot of difficulties and I guess Mama is not making the situation any better. But one funny part was that she told me,"Yelah, kn ayah awak is your idol". Hahaha almk mama tak cool ar nk jealous jealous. hurhur. And im feeling rather sad that now I have my aunties facing difficult situations of their own. I pray for a better health for both. Insyallah everyone will be better. Allah swt is testing the good ones.
Bby I have nothing to say. Because what I ever said and felt, is what you are feeling now. I am glad that I am working now and im in an environement with great people around. This makes me feel occupied when you are not around. Why waste all my time missing you and yearning for your presence and our happy moments when I can turn it into cash. Ok that sounds abit wrong eh. I still love you la baby, you know I do. I am looking forward to CNY as well. Lets hit the road baybeh! hehe. You have that certain pout that I love.=DD
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