 | I chase time. I chase dream. But will it mean I lose everything in between? Mama says head on, Ayah says stay. Shall I let nature takes its course, knowing that I will not be able to handle its dip of failure. Why do we dream too much in the first place?
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Sunday, May 16, 2010
1:57 AM
let's play a game here, girl.
we go out, we have fun.
we hold hands and kiss on the lips.
we text every minute and on the phone every night.
the one who falls in love first, loses.
and the game ends ;D
Read it somewhere, and when I first read it, it sounds interesting. Really something new and would just get my excited. But to think of it, without us realising it, we are doing it just the same. The game ends when both parties get together. Yes the game ends. All the nice way of saying things disappear. Frankness become the new thing. All the flowers by the doorstep disappears. Forgetfulness replaced. Thats just how love goes la. Sometimes when I think of it, screw it. It just hurts you back. It's 'happy moments' in disguise.
Ok my relationship is not on the rocks. Only that, im feeling useless. When I told them, "Thanks for talking to her and making her feel better". In a snap, feels like a knife stabbed twice on a same spot. When did I loss my charm to make things into Cadbury world(alala kiute)? Looking at all the comments they give and her nice reply. Just made it worse. Oh please, I would do anything to get kind responses from her and not freaking out on her everytime she diss me away. And now, I just admit I lose it. And I dont want to try. I guess its just basic human reaction when downfall occur, turn to friends. But am I a weird species to find my mate and esp families when I am having bad phases. Haha, weird. Just so weird. Hopefully, without my act of concerns and giving of pep talks wont seem like a neglect to her. Im sorry dear, ive tried. And it just hurts to be pushed away many times. All i can say is that do anything that means happiness to you. Because I dont understand a thing.
When they say age gaps dont matter, it does. I dont mind about age gap. Because I dont feel the difference. But some people just find that a talk from a kid like me is trash, because adults have more experience. Then, what do you expect me to do right? HAHA. funny.