Mood : N.A (I'm slacking yet stressing)

I guess too much responsiblity is not that good afterall. I don't want to grow up. Can I stick to watching Phineas & Ferbs and just play all day? Darn!

I'm feeling very lovey dovey today because I am finally done with my assignment(damit, its soo late) and Ive been wanting to lay on this sweet surrender. Yes, ive overcome many monkeys and donkeys playing with a young girl's heart. Telling me they'd call, when they wouldn't. They'd wait, when they wouldn't. Oh, don't get me started about waiting and being silent for almost 3 months. That, I will never forget. Singapore was really uncontactable at that point of time, i suppose. Ok lets just screw that guy and continue before I start losing all this 'semangat'(enthu) to blog. Some of you may object about my status(I don't blame you, neither could YOU BLAME ME - psst! myob ok), but baby have made a great difference in my life. I've never felt this strong love before. I still remember the first time we met. Let's remind ourselves... heee

I broke up with Corpse, and was needing badly for someone to talk to. Of course Ive already poured my hear out to my dear Shiela, but at that point of time she's not 'jiwang'. So she was really a listening ear. Literally. Hahahaha syggg kau Anak Sam. After that 'helo-helo' here and there to find a bxtch partner. Ya was busy with Celak Guy so wouldn't want to be some kind of damzel in distress infront of a 'otw-tapi tak menjadi' couple. Call this Wan-Bubble, haha, she came but she was late nearly 2hrs ok. I braved the crowd and loneliness just to meet her and bxtch, but instead she made me enlarge my circle of friends. Hahah, thats when baby arrive with Mil. I still remember a lean guy wearing those geeky specs and kept looking down. At that point of time, I wasn't looking forward to meet new friends. Little that I'd known it was a trap. A force meet-up. Someone has already eyed on me from pictures. LAKU LA I NI *malu laaaa* But the fact was he told Mil that I wasn't pretty. Biasela manusia, mane nak puas hati... Nyahah. So I was teased the whole journey to town because I hold his waist when I was on the bike. What I did was right whaat, thats SOP for riding bikes. I wouldn't want to fall off especially when my mom had no idea I was riding a bike with a stranger and non of my fam members. Spark a few conversation here and there and off we went for dinner at Ria's Cafe. Couldn't eat much due to the sorry state I was in. Bby was totally quiet while her friend just chatterbox-ed her way through dinner. After that met the "otw-tapi tak menjadi' just outside the restaurant and sat there for a while. In silence, someone had sparked of love there. Definitely not me nor Bby, it was someonnnnnnnnneeeeeee elseeeeeeeeeee.... WAKAKAKA. After that I decided to head home with that sorry-assed couple, but halfway journey Bby's was yearning to have me warming up his bike seat(didnt you dear?) and asked Wann to give me a call and asked if I would like to follow them home instead. Of course I said yes, who would want to end up being a third wheel. Had a long ride home(sanggup org2 west hantar org east that time) and it ended there.

Few days later after I shifted back to where I belong ;) someone gave me a call when I was painting the house. I knew it was bby but I joked and kept guessing he was someone else. He was pissed but we continue talking for abit till I said I had lots of things to be done. Soon after, we had our first day out together. They asked me to tag along to East Coast with them and so I did. By then, I feel warmth being around him, wanting to know him more but as a bestfriend. However, when we depart and as I tied my hair, I blew his mind away....HAHAHAHA that, I dont have any scientific explanation about tying hair and suddenly being charming. Gazzette maybe?

Things moved faster from there. Without me knowing I was getting closer to him and I wanted to know more and be more but I was afraid. Until one moment I could not take it and did not want him to wait on false hope. I indirectly drew the border that he can never pass through. He was dxmn right angry with me. Partly my fault for making look like he was going to have hope and I did not even spare his feelings and held out no hands to give him a chance. I spent the whole night tossing and turning, feeling restless not knowing what to do. Then, I realised that I actually had a crush on him and asked him to give me a second chance instead.

From there we started courting and on the evening of the faithful 090209, you're mine. Nyahaha.

To my Dearest:

Thank you for guiding me and holding a torch and light my path through future. Thank you for making me feel safe and secure with you around. Thanks for filling my smiles when Im sad, filling my laughters when im in pain. Most importantly thanks for being my one and only.

ps: always love when you kiss me on my wide jendul

pss: you are safe with me, for now ;) Your future awaits you!!! love hugz