 | I chase time. I chase dream. But will it mean I lose everything in between? Mama says head on, Ayah says stay. Shall I let nature takes its course, knowing that I will not be able to handle its dip of failure. Why do we dream too much in the first place?
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Sunday, August 22, 2010
11:12 PM
Went back to geylang in the afternoon to get my baju changed but luck is definitely not on my side, the shop was closed. Well I don't really mind the stain because it cannot be seen unless someone were to really crucially analyze my clothes, which I doubt so. Its very normal, oh well Im not working and thats what my parents could afford. I don't complain. Instead, I got another maroon top to mix to match with my old kains. Mama bought kebaya modern as well and coincidentally the same colour as mine. Hehe. I loike..
Why should I demand the things I need/want? Why should I, when I knew things only will appear only when they voluntarily want to. Not mine to command. Its true what they say, ones you have blood on your hands, it stenched real bad it lingers all around you. I, can, not, run, away. As clean as I want to show up to you, you remind me the blood. Remind me the guilt. Preserve and protect your sudden fits of anger just to cause more bloodsheds on my hands? I surrender. Cos who am I kidding.. Things are meant to be like that. Next time, please serve my lifeless heart on a silver platter. At least Im aware I lose.
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